Walk On Water, Or Drown

“Never say goodbye, because goodbye means going away, and going away means forgetting.”

Dear You,

I thought that it was about time we spoke. I'm sorry I havent tried harder. Much harder. I hope that youre doing well.
Things here have been fluctuating between good and bad. I leave for university in 6 weeks. The time seems to have gone so fast. But I'm ready. I'm not organised, but I'm ready. Ready to leave this behind.
It seems that my family are falling apart. My dad is off work ill again, with an infection, and my mum is as always. The latest blow has been my nana, who they suspect has cancer. It has come as a massive shock but I'm dealing with it the best that I can. Its difficult. She is my person. With the stress of that, and trying to sort university out, sometimes I'm suprised that i get out of bed in the morning. I finally got a hospital appointment to sort out my hearing, so we should no more by the end of this weekend.
I think that it would be easier I had more friends here. Most of them have left to University already. I have one or two to talk to online and of course I have Joshua, but he's so far away and sometimes its a struggle being alone. I wish you were here often. You always reminded me to breathe.

I'll write again soon
Love San